Motherhood=JOY

Well I made it! I never thought it would come....but I am officially a mother. I didn't know at first. I had my doubts and I was a little scared, but that's why God gives us 9 months to become better aquatinted with the idea. It was an interesting journey. One full of firsts. The 9 months were filled with people asking me questions and sometimes I just wanted to tell them to leave me alone and go away. Sometimes after they left I burst into tears, I mean who asks/tells a pregnant lady "Man I could tell you were pregnant, you look fatter." "Well those pants will never fit again." "Really your going to eat that?" "Your looking huge!" "I'm going to torture your child as soon as they come out." "Sleep now while you can because as soon as they are out you will never get any sleep" (that is such a stupid, annoying saying that everyone thought was the best advice they could give me. Really?! You want me to sleep when My husband steals all of my pillows in the middle of the night, even the ones that are under my belly (he doesn't do it on purpose, he just does it in his sleep) and I get pushed off the bed, the baby is moving like none other, and I keep having to get up to pee, or to get a drink of water or to eat. And I just can't sleep. If you want to know the truth other than the first couple of weeks, like 3 tops, I wasn't getting too much sleep at night. but now 7 weeks later, well actually it started right around 4 weeks I sleep through the night, only waking up maybe one or two times a night, and when I wake up all I do is put the pacifier in her mouth and out she goes.) If I had to hear that one one more time I was going to kick someone really really hard. But onto MOTHERHOOD....


Thursday July 11th, 2013 3:20 AM my precious daughter was born.
~Hailey Effie Lynn Moser~
6lbs .89oz  
19 1/4 Inches Long

I woke up Wednesday July 10th and began to have a talk with my unborn child. I said "Hailey we have to have a serious talk. You HAVE to come today, or you HAVE to wait till the 18th. It's up to you, but let me tell you, if you come today Grandpa Dann will be so happy. You see today is his birthday, and he would just love it if you came today. Now you can technically come on the 11th or the 12th, but from the 13th till the 16th Grandma Ann is out of town. And I know your due date is the 17th, but that is the wicked witches birthday, and we can't be sharing a birthday so if you don't come today you have to wait till the 18th. So you decide.
So I got ready to start the day. It was a nice day, not too hot, not too sunny, a little over cast. (THANK YOU GOD IT WASN'T LIKE LAST SUMMER WHEN THE AVERAGE WAS IN THE 90'S OR 100'S) So baby girl and I decided to go for a walk around Belmar park, but the walk turned into 2 laps, and soon 2 laps turned into 3 laps. I was going to go for 7 but my feet started to hurt. I mean it worked for Jericho right? Well baby girl wasn't budging, so we stopped at King Soppers for some pineapple, because I love pineapple. Than we went to Wendy's for lunch. I figured why not, so we ate some spicy nuggets and had a spicy wrap with 2 packages of hot sauce on it. Michelle (my old manager) warned me that baby would be a bouncing. (yeah, sounds good to me) Than we went home and waited for Ryan to come home. Than it was time for church so we went to church (it was now 6:30) around 6:45pm I felt something. Hey I think that was a contraction.....but how am I suppose to know what a contraction feels like? I've never had one before. 6:55pm Hey what's going on baby? What are you doing in there. I think that might have been another one. 7:07pm WHAT? ok I think that is a contraction. This is going to be a long night. what do they say like 12 hours is a short delivery. Man why do babies always come at night? THEY ALWAYS COME AT NIGHT. That's just how it works.  7:20pm Another one? 7:31pm another one? ok that's 10 minutes apart for an hour. what's the rule??? right 5-1-1 ~ 5 minutes lasting 1 minute for 1 hour. ok. Around 8:30 we arrive home and I call my mother. She's a baby nurse, she delivers babies everyday.
"Mom I think baby is coming tonight."
"10 minutes apart? They might just be Braxton Hicks. Or they might really be contractions, but it could be hours."
"Ok. Well I'll keep you posted."
So I downloaded the contraction counter app. for my ipad. It is 11:57pm contractions are 42 seconds long. averaging about 4 minutes apart. (ok so we are way past the 5-1-1 here but I hadn't started keeping track sooner so we didn't know that, so I told Ryan we should wait till it was an hour)
Ryan "I think I'm going to just take a nap because this could be a long night"
I'm thinking "You got to be kidding me....I don't get to sleep, I can't sleep when baby is waking me up every 4 minutes."
Little to say he didn't get to sleep, because shortly after that I started throwing up. When I started thinking "hey the lady in the birthing class said that throwing up was a sign that labor was starting. the second stage, what is it called? man i can't remember, lame why can't I remember?"
12:30am contractions are consistently 3 minutes apart.
Ryan says "hey the contractions are getting closer. I'm going to call the doctor and see what they say."
Ryan calls. The lady says she will page the doctor and call back in 20minutes.
12:50am No call.
1:10ish Ryan calls the lady back and says he hasn't heard. She tells him she will page the doctor call back in 20 miuntes.
1:30am Ryan calls the lady. Turns out the doctor no longer has a pager so she calls Dr. Jones. Contractions are 2 minutes apart.
2:00 am Lady gets a hold of the doctor and tells us to go to the hospital.
We leave for the hospital.
2:40ish am It's early in the morning so we have to go through the ER and get carted around. They bring a wheel chair and are asking questions. contractions are close together, I'm thinking "uh uh uh....man I can't answer these questions. I ouch can't think of the answer." Ryan answers questions.
We finally make it to the labor and delivery floor. They take me to an OR room to exam how far along I am and get monitors on the baby. they strap the monitors around my belly, contractions still at 2 minutes apart. One nurse is trying to start an IV, the other nurse is putting oxygen on my face, and one other one is telling me I need to flip and keeps flipping me from side to side. I start freaking out because I hate IV's and they are acting like something is wrong and I had no idea. (apparently Hailey's heart rate had dropped like way down or something that's what Ryan told me)
The one nurse asks if I wanted any type of pain medicine.
"Something might be nice."Especially if this is going to go on for a couple of hours I'm thinking.
They check and I was fully dilated, +2 (what ever that means). "Sorry you can't have anything"
"Let's mover her to delivery, she's ready."
They moved me into the big delivery room. but guess what? Doctor Jones is not there yet. So I have 3 nurses in there, they page the on call Doctor. The nurse tells me "On the next contraction you can push. Are you ready?"
"Sure why not?" I say with a big smile (why on earth was I smiling through this all? I mean as soon as they moved me from the OR to the delivery room I was smiling the whole time. Why? because at that point I realized that hey the pain is about to end. It's not going to be all night, and guess what? It wasn't. we were at the hospital 45 minutes and Hailey was there. crazy for a first time delivery they say. Awesome.)
So I push. (they always say push. but what are you pushing? I mean ya a baby? but how? I still don't know, but some how your body just does it)
Ryan's Mom arrives some where around there.
I realized that the contractions don't hurt when you push. This is a good deal and it means baby is coming.
I push again. The on call doctor arrives, he says "why don't we just wait, hold off on pushing." I was thinking no way, baby is almost here, and it doesn't hurt. (Ryan told me later that the doctor got a call saying Doctor Jones was on the premises so he was waiting for her to arrive)
Doctor Jones enters. "Hey Emily. Didn't I tell you we wouldn't see you next week?"
"Yeah (sheepishly)"
"Ok next contraction lets push."
I pushed. every one says "we can see the head."
"One more big push."
I try. Not happening I need a break. "I'm sorry I just can't"
I relax, next contraction I push, give a little scream/grunt, and out comes baby.
SMILE! my baby is here. Ryan cuts the chord. (which he totally said there was no way, no how he was doing. lol I almost laughed)
First thing they do, lol put baby on my chest. I close my eyes and say "I really, really want to hold her, but I need her wiped off a little bit. because if I look at her right now I will pass out." because I really want to enjoy the first moment I get to hold my baby instead of passing out.
They wipe her off some more and than I get to hold my precious sweet baby girl. O my how happy I was. Look out world, I'm a momma! This is my beautiful, sweet baby girl. THe one who was inside of me for 9 months, who grew, and moved, and kicked, and hiccuped inside of me. The precious little girl whom I love with all my heart.
The only complaint I had was WHY DO BABIES ALWAYS COME AT NIGHT/EARLY IN THE MORNING?
And the funny thing about it all, back in May when I had my "baby shower" Ryan wrote down that Hailey would come at 3 AM. He was 20 minutes off.
I gave birth to a baby, and guess what? I didn't use any drugs! wow I totally didn't think that would happen, though Ryan tells me that in the delivery room he thought I was high, I was acting higher than a kite. That's just because I was so excited for my daughter. even all the nurses commented on how I was smiling. I was just breathing. whohh whohh whoohh.  (short short long) I only screamed, but wasn't even a scream once. the very last push. It just burned, to be honest. Other than that, it was awesome. I know have my sweet baby girl and she is 7 weeks old. how sweet! my sweet, spoiled angel. I love her.

***RANT OF AWESOMENESS IT'S YOUR CHOICE TO READ****
~Pro Life Always! Pro Choice is just a lame stupid "save the sea turtles kill the babies" stupid silliness. Hello! The baby sea turtles in the eggs are the same thing as a baby in the womb. It's a living being. A snugly little living being that is safe and secure, or so it thinks with a big wide scary world out there. Be Pro Choice in the sense that you want to give that sweet baby a choice. A choice to live there life for God. A choice to make a difference in this world. To be a world Changer. Give the baby a choice to come into this big scary world. Don't take away that choice for the baby. It was your choice to make that baby. I know in some circumstances it is not your choice to make that baby, but in that case make the choice to give that baby life. Your mom gave you life. God gave you your life. Choose to serve Him. The Choice is up to you. Saint or an Aint~