Yesterday we had our 20 week Ultrasound(I'm really 21 weeks, but all the same difference) and we found out we are having a BOY!
Being pregnant I am a mix of emotions. My main one being I AM EXCITED!!!!!! I am so excited. Baby boy looks healthy and perfect.......but then I am overwhelmed with the thought of what am I going to do with a boy? Does this mean that this is my last baby? because I don't know if I'm done. I want to see how I do with two kids before I decide if I'm finish. Though my husband said we are done after he found out it was a boy. He told me that if it was a girl he might have been open to having one more. I don't know. I feel sad. Yesterday I pulled out the small amount of boy clothes I have saved for baby boy and went through some of the baby girl clothes to pull out gender neutral clothes. It made me really sad. When I would pack up Hailey's clothes when she out grew them I felt okay with it all because I thought that I would be pulling them out one day for her sister and the clothes would get more use. Though the clothes did get a lot of use compared to some baby clothes.
What do I do with a boy? I am not a boy. With Hailey it's easy. We have tea parties and princess's. I know how to play with Hailey and what toys to tell Grandparent's to get her. BUT what do I tell them to get for a boy? I am so excited, but so nervous that I won't know what to do with a boy. My pregnant brain is just overwhelmed with emotions. It's not that I'm not excited because I am over the moon with excitement. It's that I am nervous of the unknown. A little scared of the change. Though when I was pregnant with Hailey I was super nervous, from the start. I think yesterday was just a crazy day because it became real, and especially when I unpacked all of baby boy's clothes. Oh life, you are a crazy one. Here are some ultrasound picture of baby boy. Can't wait to see his little face and kiss that sweet little nose.
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| Baby Boy's little face....look at that chin :D |
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| side view of baby boy's head and rib cage |
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| it's a boy!!!!! :D |
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